To my dear friend…

Dear Gary McSpadden,

I feel so grateful for the bond of purpose God placed between us.   I only wish, in the years we worked together, I had been whole in spirit and mind and given to God in total surrender.   It seems, in spite of my emotional instability, strong will, and destructive behavior, God used you and your family to bless me.   

Thank you for your kind heart towards me, and for reliably loving and supporting my talent.   The encouragement I could always count on from, not only you, but Shawn, Michelle, and Carol, was meaningful and inspirational.  It was like fuel that lit the fire of creativity within me.   
I always felt that you truly wanted for me what I believed I wanted for myself.   I never felt that you wanted to change me or the desires of my heart, but eagerly and sincerely wanted to make my dreams come true.  I struggled with low self esteem, with sin, spiritual surrender and so many other issues that left me incapable of living up to our potential as a team.    

I let us down in the equation.  I was the weak link.   I’m so sorry.    I love you with all of my heart and stand today in the shadow God’s grace, and your goodness towards me.   

Dawn